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I managed to arrive to my third Grinberg session in a much better state, so Charlotte and I were able to concentrate on the issues that hinder my daily life, on both a personal and professional level. We recapped my reaction and feelings to my “difficult Wednesday” and tried to pinpoint an aspect of what stops me from handling new situations. As the year draws to a close, many of us are taking stock of 2011 and it really has been a tough year. There are certain behaviours and attitudes that I would like to shrug off and enter 2012 with a cleaner slate. But, there is not much time left, so I had better get a move on.

My biggest challenge at the moment is fear of fear. There, I’ve said it. I hate feeling fear and how uncomfortable it makes me feel. I’ve been overreacting to everything in the past few months, trying desperately to avoid feeling fear, but only making things that much worse. After a brief chat to identify my reaction to fear, Charlotte then concentrated on my stomach region, which is an area where I make a lot of effort to manage my fear.

First I had to pay attention to the tension I usually hold in my stomach area. After sensing the different states my stomach goes through upon feeling fear and then releasing the fear,  I managed to achieve a more relaxed tummy and deeper breathing. Charlotte instructed me to think about something that causes fear in me. I knew exactly what to think about! I’ve recently decided to start saying no to projects that I’m not all that interested in or that I just don’t have time for, instead of juggling tons of things at the same time and not producing quality results. I feel fear about saying no in my professional life. So, Charlotte instructed me to concentrate on the new sensations that were appearing.

Turns out, I’ve managed to create quite a powerful physical reaction to fear to avoid suffering external fear. So, I managed to assuage one problem by creating another. The fear doesn’t actually disappear, I just try to manage it through the reactions in my body. My body had completely kicked into “flight”mode, which happens to me often.

I was then told to relax again and after a little while, my entire body was buzzing with a new sense of security. I felt that I had discovered a great chunk of myself and that I would be better equipped the next time I felt fear. I could literally feel my blood flowing. What I have to acknowledge is the fact that it is not weak or negative to feel or allow fear. It’s completely natural and useful, it is a great source of energy, and can heighten my senses and way of percevieing a situation.

I now have only one session left. Charlotte has already taught me so much. If you’re curious to see what she can teach you, why not try out the four, free Grinberg Method sessions she’s offering, in English or Spanish, until the end of February.

Check out my other sessions:
Session 1 – A Small Personal Journey
Session 2 – When You Press so Hard it Hurts

Charlotte Crowther – Grinberg Method Practitioner Level I
Centro de Practicantes del Método Grinberg
Vía Laietana 54, 4º-3ª
Barcelona
Email: charlottecrowther@me.com
Web: www.charlottecrowther.com/grinberg

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